tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-87777954808908559882024-02-19T22:59:15.402-08:00It's about me while I turn 24Jinu Peyetihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17849163995474671851noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8777795480890855988.post-66909107761492683372009-03-27T09:19:00.000-07:002009-03-27T10:10:06.503-07:00Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.<p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US">Hell it's been just too long since I wrote anything here! This blog is supposed to be my learning blo(g)ck. I'll keep it simple. There have been a lot of things I learnt in the last month and half, that is since the time I turned 24. There's stuff. About parents, work, friends and of course myself. Pointers should be fine?</p> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;"> <li value="1" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;">1. Perseverance is the ONLY key to a lasting relationship. There will be times when you have to not only let go of your ego, but also your self-respect. You have to stop standing up for yourself and in fact may be stoop low. OK this low here is subjective. Experience (other people's) tells me when you are really in love, that 'stooping low' does not feel like you are actually stooping low. And when your friends are telling you that you've been a complete loser whereas you do not think so, then you know you are in love. The real love. </span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US">Ok, I am saying all this as if I learnt it myself! Haha! But I know what it takes. Thanks to all my friends now settling down steady. </p> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;"> <li value="2" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;">2. The thanking of friends brings me to point 2. Every one goes. No one stays. And that's to be accepted both soon enough and with sufficient grace to not look and feel like a loner loser. Friends are there for you, no doubt - but only for special occasions - happy and sad. Forget calling up your friends randomly at 2 and saying let's go the railway station and have chai. No one appreciates it. </span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;"> <li value="3" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;">3. Parents grow old - again, accept it. Sooner the better. And also make sure you never let them realize they are growing old. Do not over protect. Let them be by themselves as if they are still 38. But keep a bloody close watch. They need love and need to know their kids won't 'move on.' They are indeed old when you are 24 with an older sibling. </span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;"> <li value="4" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;">4. If you and your childhood sweetheart still adore each other, then bloody hell go ahead and be together. Don't wait to find the right someone and don't keep this sweetheart as a back up option. You know why? One of you will never take any relationship/affair seriously thinking there is that ultimate backup. Only to realize the ultimate backup does not need you. And you will regret missing the train. </span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;"> <li value="5" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;">5. Don't over counsel your friends. You don't know what will they conclude. Don't worry they don’t hate you if you do. Nothing changes. But still, don't over counsel. You might end up looking like an idiot. </span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;"> <li value="6" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;">6. Procrastination is the easiest thing in the world. It is sad that something I never knew before, is all I know now - and that's procrastination. Oh btw, you should go on a vacation at the slightest chance you get. You never know when life will cripple you into permanency.</span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;"> <li value="7" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;">7. 'Business manager' is a word that I understand better than the word 'bed.' Courtesy my boss. You can be a business man by sheer ideas, BUT you can run a business only if you are a business manager. And yes, business management is a tact that can be polished and put into perspective in a B-school, but cannot be taught. You either have it or you don't. Period. But yes, if making graphs and drawing inferences is all your definition of running a business, then … then only God can help you. Or maybe your auditor. </span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;"> <li value="8" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;">8. There is a whole bunch of things about ethics, governance, leadership, ideation, implementation, analysis etc that I have learnt. But I am sure no one wants to read a management book here. So we'll chuck it. </span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US">In a nutshell, my friends have moved on damn rapidly (and I think I am stranded but as I said in pt. 2, I am maintaining my decorum) my parents are starting to grow old (and are in denial - which suits me, in a way) and I worked with a screwed up business manager. </p>Jinu Peyetihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17849163995474671851noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8777795480890855988.post-8808909315043829592009-02-05T08:59:00.001-08:002009-02-05T09:05:28.556-08:00In an hour and half, will be the same ol' routine. I will fake being asleep. They'll come to my room with a cake and a candle. I will pretend looking sleepy and excited at the same time. Then, I'll pose for the camera and get sick photographs clicked. <div><br /></div><div>I will get a few calls - sister, a friend or 2 - some expected and some not. I will also NOT get a few very expected calls. I will then go to sleep wishing if only I din't have to wake up early to go to the temple, I could have done a late night movie. Sigh!</div><div><br /></div><div>Nothing changes on this day - except that the entire routine changes, phone buzzes a little more than it otherwise does and people force you to believe that you are little more grown up - whether you like it or not - and so you gotta fix your life. (Though none of them have done it yet for themselves!)</div><div><br /></div><div>And to make it worse, first time in 6 years, there is no alcohol on this day. </div><div><br /></div><div>Sigh...yet another birthday. <br /></div>Jinu Peyetihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17849163995474671851noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8777795480890855988.post-1412639045378771112009-01-26T22:57:00.000-08:002009-01-26T22:58:13.257-08:00Ten things I will do in my 24th year.<p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US">There are 2 things here - I will turn 24 in a few days and so I thought I will come up with 10 things I want to do this year. There might be things here which seem too personal to appear in a blog, but I want to take accepting myself to the next level - accepting and being comfortable about it. So, I will shed the mask while I write on my blog and will talk about myself and my realities more openly. </p> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> <li value="1" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-weight: bold;font-weight:bold;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt">Read a lot more </span><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-family: Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>- The last 6 months of 2008 were quite bad in terms of reading. I did not read as many books as I had aimed to or usually did in the same span of time earlier. I read a lot even now, but I read a lot of stuff online - blogs, articles etc. I value learning in all forms and am not discriminating hard copies to soft copies but I am still an ardent fan of physical books. I want to get back to that. </span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> <li value="2" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-weight: bold;font-weight:bold;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt">Apportion my time wisely between online and offline activities </span><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri; font-size:11.0pt">- I am somehow becoming a wire-addict in an unhealthy way - facebooking and reading random blogs. I need to stay online for Point no. 10 but I need to apportion time well so that my point no. 5 and no. 8 do not get a beating. This will mean a lot of time management. Scared already!</span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> <li value="3" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-weight: bold;font-weight:bold;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt">I will not get hooked to people in a frenzy</span><span style="font-family:Calibri; font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt">. I have accepted that I get attached very easily and illogically. Letting go does not come easy to me and so this year I won't let such a situation arise where I have to let go painfully.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>No trial and error this time on. For me, the 'Sex and the city' life is best appreciated on TV and is not to be practiced. I SUCK at being so carefree. </span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> <li value="4" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-weight: bold;font-weight:bold;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt">I will crave lesser to be at a different place</span><span style="font-family:Calibri; font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> - When I was home, I wanted to be in Pune, when I was in Pune, I wanted to be in Hyd, when I was in Hyd, I wanted to be home and now that I am home, I want to be in Pune or Hyd! It is so weird - I ALWAYS want to be somewhere else! Yes, I am quite a nomad but this is just too much fluctuation. When I had a social circle I wanted to run away from civilization and now that I don't have any, I want to party every night! I will now be happy and content to be where I am and will tell this to myself more often.</span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> <li value="5" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-weight: bold;font-weight:bold;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt">MBA</span><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri; font-size:11.0pt"> - I will honestly prepare for the GMAT. Not half heartedly and not for the world. But whole heartedly and for myself. It might take 6 months instead of 3, but it will happen this time. </span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> <li value="6" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-weight: bold;font-weight:bold;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt">Open a Recurring Deposit account</span><span style="font-family:Calibri; font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> - Even if it is for 2k bucks - I'll open one. </span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> <li value="7" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-family: Calibri;font-size:11.0pt">I badly want to </span><span style="font-family: Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-weight:bold;font-weight:bold;font-family: Calibri;font-size:11.0pt">get skinny!</span><span style="font-family:Calibri; font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> Yeah, I have never been reed thin and I so wanna see how I look if I lose my cheeks and have a chiseled face! It is a very far fetched thing to want, considering I stay with family these days and they won't let me starve.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>I don't think only exercise can do that. Can it? Also, my physique is such that skinny is probably only imagination!</span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> <li value="8" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-weight: bold;font-weight:bold;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt">Get better at running/jogging</span><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt; font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> - I was never too bad with running on the treadmill or even on the footpath for that matter. But I was never too great either and I somehow always wanted to ace this one thing. I think I am gonna run more often this year and see that I run more number of minutes at a row than what I do right now. </span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> <li value="9" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-weight: bold;font-weight:bold;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt">Talk less</span><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-family:Calibri; font-size:11.0pt"> - My need to talk and tell stuff is just so much. I need to keep telling my loved ones what's going on. I am also painfully elaborate. I am sure people lose track midway through my posts. I am gonna try talking lesser about stuff sporadically and will try to put my point across in as few words as possible. </span></li> </ol> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US">Trust me, I have NO clue how I will ever do this! </p> <p style="margin:0in;margin-left:.375in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <ol type="1" style="margin-left:.375in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed; margin-top:0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> <li value="10" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;font-weight: bold;font-weight:bold;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt">Polish a few subjects</span><span style="font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt; font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt"> - Geo-Politics and World Economy to start with. (Then move on to other stuff.) I hate being lost when I watch BBC or when I read certain authors. </span></li></ol>Jinu Peyetihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17849163995474671851noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8777795480890855988.post-20556246751206873942009-01-12T04:26:00.000-08:002009-01-12T04:38:04.356-08:0023 things about me<ol style="margin-left:.3902in;direction:ltr;unicode-bidi:embed;margin-top: 0in;margin-bottom:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;"> <li value="1" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight: bold; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I love all seasons</span></span></span></span><span style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> I have told myself in every season - THIS is my favorite season. But in reality I like every season equally. I love winters, summers, rains, winds, stillness, grey skies, blue skies - everything.</span></span></span></li> <li value="2" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">In my bag you will ALWAYS find - Vaseline, iPod, comb (not hair-brush) and Hanuman Chalisa. </span></span></span></span></li> <li value="3" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I dig bad guys</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> Ruffled hair, unshaven and careless fashion have the maximum appeal in my mind. Bigger the pyscho-head, the better. Somehow I feel lot of love for people who do not find me great :P </span></span></span><span style="font-style:italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">But the biggest turn on is an ambitious mind</span></span></span><span style=" "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">. Nothing beats a guy who wants to go out and get the damn thing he likes/wants.</span></span></span></li> <li value="4" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I always want to see endings</span></span></span></span><span style=" "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> and when I see something end, it upsets</span></span><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">me so much! Especially books and some of my relationships. (which start from nowhere and seem just too good to be true.) </span></span></span></li> <li value="5" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I cannot live without my friends.</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> Literally. </span></span></span></li> <li value="6" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I smile a whole freaking lot.</span></span></span></span><span style=" "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> No matter how difficult times are, I do not fail to smile. I don't have to 'try.' I can't help it but smile most of the time. :) And I love myself for that. </span></span></span></li> <li value="7" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I get attached to people very</span></span></span><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">easily</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> So easily that I go through hell to see them go, even if it's been only ten days of knowing them. Basically I love everyone. I can't think of one person I hate. It's strange. </span></span></span></li> <li value="8" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I am super-balanced and super-eccentric both</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> That is what makes people hate me. A part of me wants to scrape paint off walls and live alone in Norway and a part of me wants to be a CEO and have a family in NYC. Most people cannot deal with it.</span></span></span></li> <li value="9" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I HATE when people sulk too much or for too long.</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I feel so restless when I see people who cannot control their head and heart. The thumb rule of my life has been to always be in charge of my thoughts and emotions - I get irritated when I see people who are not at least 50% as in charge of their life as I am of mine. </span></span></span></li> <li value="10" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I have lost some of my most important qualities</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> - like organizing stuff and good execution of plans. I have become a procrastinator. I have lost focus. I aspire big but somehow I don't seem to be working to make those aspirations come true.</span></span></span></li> <li value="11" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I want to be *exactly* like my mom when (if) I become a mother. </span></span></span></span></li> <li value="12" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I need to talk a lot and I am damn elaborate.</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> Actually I know my stuff so well when I talk, that I feel the need to bring that clarity on to the other person's thought. That way I end up giving long explanations!</span></span></span></li> <li value="13" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I underplay stuff</span></span></span></span><span style=" "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> - I cannot show off, I will ignore if someone embarrasses himself, and I compliment only when I whole-heartedly feel it. I am a barren sea for people fishing for compliments and I am bad at giving ego massages. </span></span></span></li> <li value="14" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I am very very straight forward</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> - what's on my mind, is what's on my face. I cannot pretend. If I dislike something said or done, I will say it straight.</span></span></span></li> <li value="15" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I have never fallen in love or said 'I love you' to anybody</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> (romantically, of course!) <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">though I have been in relationships. </span></span></span></span></li> <p lang="en-US" style="margin:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">(Assuming that love is the feeling which stops your thinking process and</span></span><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">you feel like you will die without him/her and that you want that person as a partner by hook or by crook. It makes you endure and persevere for that one person. If that is love, I have been far far away from it! </span></span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-bottom: 0in; margin-left: 0in; " lang="en-US"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">But if love is knowing that you can spend the rest of your life with this person but you can also live without them and that you will tell them they are important but will not stoop low to get them - then yes, I have been in love quite a few times!)</span></span></p> <li value="16" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span></span></span><span style="font-weight:bold; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I am a firm believer of -</span></span></span><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">"love yourself if you want to love others."</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> I totally love myself and am so proud of what I am. I would not trade an inch of me to be something or someone else. </span></span></span></li> <li value="17" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I accommodate people and can go out of my way to see things from their perspective.</span></span></span></span><span><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I do not ever raid other people's space for my comfort. I do not cascade blame and in fact make it a point to see and rectify my contribution in any situation of pain/disharmony. I am not scared of taking responsibility.</span></span></span></li> <li value="18" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I am damn scared of getting a head injury</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">. </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">That is why I am such a careful driver and I always wear a helmet while on a 2-wheeler. Somehow I fear losing my mental stability and stuff. Broken limbs and bruises, I think are cool. :) </span></span></span></li> <li value="19" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I am a good listener</span></span></span></span><span style=" "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> - I fully absorb myself in a conversation and mean it when I give suggestions and/or express myself. You will never ever have me listen 'casually.'</span></span></span></li> <li value="20" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I know when things seem silly but in reality mean a lot to the other person. I am good at grasping moods, facial expressions and making people comfortable around me. </span></span></span><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I do not give jitters.</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> :)</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> And trust me, I know when people fake. I swear!</span></span></span></li> <li value="21" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Ok this one sucks -</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span></span></span><span style="font-weight:bold; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I am choosy about the people who can counsel me.</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> That is the 'limited rights only' section of my life. You might be someone close and capable of counseling but I might ignore what you say because of my mental block. There are different counselors for different sections of my life. Some people are only vents and not counselors. Ok this is complicated, I know. </span></span></span></li> <li value="22" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Another weakness -</span></span></span><span style="font-weight:bold; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I cannot remember fiction/stories</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> At all. I have read so many books and seen so many movies but surprisingly, I don't remember stories beyond a few days. But yes, I remember real-life stories quite well. </span></span></span></li> <li value="23" style="margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;vertical-align:middle" lang="en-US"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I have never asked a very important question to so many people.</span></span></span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I would have had so much peace of mind if I had that one question answered and I would have probably been a better person if I had that question answered, since I would have learnt from my experience. I probably never asked because I was too scared of the truth or maybe I was not ready for blatant lies. </span></span></span></li> <p style="margin-top: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-bottom: 0in; margin-left: 0in; " lang="en-US"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-bottom: 0in; margin-left: 0in; font-weight: bold; " lang="en-US"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">The question being - "Why?"</span></span></span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-bottom: 0in; margin-left: 0in; " lang="en-US"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-bottom: 0in; margin-left: 0in; " lang="en-US"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Please note</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> that this post is just my perception of me. Your perception of me might be much different from what is written here. If it is, then please post a comment. The idea is to bridge the gap between who I really am and what I think I am. </span></span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-bottom: 0in; margin-left: 0in; " lang="en-US"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-bottom: 0in; margin-left: 0in; " lang="en-US"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> </span></span></p></ol>Jinu Peyetihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17849163995474671851noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8777795480890855988.post-65734455341387436092009-01-11T23:16:00.000-08:002009-01-12T04:36:05.987-08:00Why this new blog?<p style="margin:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US">I realized that I have learnt a lot at age 24 and there is a lot more that I have not. </p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US">There are good habits lost and bad habits retained. </p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US">There are friends made and friends lost. </p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US">There are things I want to do as I grow older, anxieties that I want to get rid of and habits that I want to inculcate or bring back. </p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US">I think having all this on <a href="http://whatjinuwants.blogspot.com/">the other blog</a> will spoil the flow of randomness on it. So this is my attempt to put my life into words, and use it as a tool for introspection and as a check-list. </p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US">To start with, these are the things you will see in the next few days - </p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US"> </p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US">10 things I want to do in the 24th year of my life.</p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US">23 things I have learnt about myself in the last 23 years.</p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Calibri;font-size:11.0pt" lang="en-US">23 things I have learnt about the world in the last 23 years.</p>Jinu Peyetihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17849163995474671851noreply@blogger.com0